I have finally slept at around 1:20AM last night. But it was weird. Right before I was about to fall asleep, I felt a scent of my past coming back.

In my sleep, I had a dream of a dark feeling I have not had for the longest time. I was myself. I was in desperate need of help. But no matter how hard I cried, no one was there to help me. Even with a special someone, they did not help. No matter what I did, it caused troubling and sadness to myself. I felt truly alone.

All of my drawings had disappeared and my memories were fading away. I couldn't even remember the last drawing I had drawn. I tried and tried to remember, but the only thing I had envisioned was an nonexistent drawing of a male character. Because I have lost everything including my memory, I felt completely lost. Doomed.

I am in my bed shuffling in my blankets. Unable to rest or wake. Losing track of real time. In minutes, perhaps hours, I finally give up the struggle and turn to my right where I left my cell phone. The clock reads 8:40AM. I have finally done it. Even for less than 7 hours of restless sleep, I have finally awakened in the morning. It has been such a long time.

In the bright yellow morning, I walked around the house. Everything was calm and quiet. But I still felt like I have lost a large portion of myself. As if the dream meant something, like it was trying to tell me something. Now my entire body feels weak, my legs are in pain and I am feeling depressed. Imaginary depression. I realize that the dream did have a purpose. It has reminded myself of my past self. The dark past that haunts me whenever I think of it.

Now what am I doing that is different today?


Anyway, as for the request thing, I'm going to give it a few more hours before I start reading and replying. So, if you really want to make another attempt, please do so! If you're already on my to-do list, then you don't need to request -- unless you want to change it into a request instead of a trade, collab or gift.












Sorry people! I haven't been active for a bit. I got addicted to Mabinogi. @__@

I was working on the 4th banished but I got stuck like so bad. And uhh... I still have art trades to do. I know it seems that I've been neglecting them, but I'll try to get back to them asap.

And as for my sleeping habits, oh gawd. It's so messed up. I sleep at 8AM and wake up at around 4PM. All because I'm addicted to the computer and waaay too lazy to go sleep. Yes, that's right. I'm lazy to sleep. 8D

Okay. I have one art request open. Whoever makes the most beautiful and meaningful comment in this journal gets it! 8D





To receive a trade, request, collab, gift, and what else, you must unlock the friendship achievement. :3

















This list is in no particular order. I have a terrible memory so please do not hesitate to tell me if I have forgotten you. ^^