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Memoir for Rayne

Looking back, you were only a child with a cruel fate. But to this day, you have defined more than I could have ever imagined. The bonding of light and darkness. From friendship to love to life. This is my most precious story yet.

Love Across Universes

The butterflies that flew from the land of dreams to the sky of wishes. A rare and distant kind of relationship that brings two ends together, completing the circle of worlds. Maybe in their lifetime will they meet at long last.

Never Forget

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20150502 by winnietehpoohie
20150502
My part in Illycia's telephone meme on Twitter. Here's the full thing: twitter.com/illycia/status/620…. The design really changed big time. XD  This opportunity was helpful and fun~ I hope to do more fun stuff like this in the future. ^^
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Not dead, just very slow

Sun Jul 12, 2015, 2:07 AM
  • Mood: Distracted
I honestly don't know what happened but I'm just not very dA-active, or art-active either. Writing a journal seems to be very challenging too because I often don't have anything to write about except to whine about how I'm not active like now. But I guess I'm writing one now because I just wanted to let my watchers know that I'm not dead, just very slow... with all of my art. I do have a bunch of WIPs, but don't got the flame to go for it and finish them. I often feel like it's not good enough anyway and people are going to judge me. I know that's not the case and I know I should just do it anyway because I want to. I honestly do want to, but I just can't shake the feeling that people are watching over my shoulder. Like they expect good things from me since I've been drawing for quite a long time now that I should be much improved by now, yes? I can't tell if I've improved or not. Feels like I'm still where I am the last drawing I've done. Anyway, the point is that I don't feel free as I used to be, when I was young and blissful. I have a lot of "responsibility art" that I need to complete and I think that may be bogging me down significantly. Like, "I'm not allowed to draw whatever until the stuff that matters more is out of the way first." It creates a vicious cycle because that kind of art loses it fun factor fairly quickly, thus I'm just doing tedious art the whole way and end up not doing them, or it's not fun so what's the point if it doesn't satisfy my desire or the drawing. Now, perhaps I can find a way to make it fun... Maybe I should do more Livestream sessions again like before. It helps push me, but again, the over-the-shoulder thing. Yeah I know I shouldn't be afraid. No one can hurt me, physically at least. Truth be told, I'm terribly weak to criticism. Even if people don't say it, I still kinda feel it or imagine it's there. It's not just for art but whatever I do here. It paralyses me. There was a time when it didn't bothered me, which was when I was actually in the art groove. Anyway, don't know what else to say. Just venting I guess. And not giving up. ^^ Still thinking about that new group idea btw~

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HaseoLeomyr Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Would you do an art trade with me?
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Parikuu Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2015
The Memoir for Rayne and Love Across Universes are very pretty and interesting!
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Have you ever tried pixel art?
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MAGNUS-8M Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2015
Well, I just managed to get an early-access code for the Toyhou.se site, but another person is offering codes for others too.  They just wanted me to ask you myself if you want it before I ask for it, though.  Interested?  I thought of you for it since you're also very character-oriented..just let me know if you're interested and I'll message them back.
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pastel-chuu Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
//waves hi hi!
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fieryrebirth Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015
I'll lend my support by the end of the month...Try to at least.
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Saffronmahboi Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2015
You have an awesome username. Really and truly.
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DustBunnyThumper Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2015
Thanks so much for the cake badge and birthday wish winnie--HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL AND THAT EVERYTHING'S LOOKING UP FOR YOU--if it isn't, then please hang in there: I believe in you lots and I'm really grateful you came to stop by on my page :icondeadbodyplz:!!! sends much love
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MAGNUS-8M Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2015
Oh, and sorry to double-post, but are you still into Monster Hunter a little?  I've got three extra codes for the demo of Monster Hunter 4, if you're interested.  Not sure how long they're good for or whether they'll just release a general demo some time later anyway, but just thought I'd ask.
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MAGNUS-8M Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2015
Well, I've found the forever song of forever and ever, but only sometimes:

youtu.be/X93MH9-BMlY

ONLY SOMETIMES, I said!
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